That is... until I got onto one of those social networking sites. Yes, I have a facebook. I check it often. I like that I can keep up with people without having to have the "Hi, how are you?" phone call, or run into them in public and not remember they have 3 kids and are not pregnant with #4 (despite what they look like). I rarely add people as friends. Thats not really my style. Working in the ER, or flying I ran across a ton of people that added me and I don't know them all super well. So I'm checking people's statuses... nada big. When I come across a very recent posting. It was from a medic who was in my class. (in fact, she was still there.... in the afternoon class) She openly bashed my lecture and questioned how much she had paid for the class. She actually used a couple of my phrases in her posting. I think she probably forgot that she had added me as a friend.
I was devastated. Seriously. I try to put myself out there and make the class both educational and worthwhile and this is what I get in return. I'm all for constructive criticism. If there was a way I could have presented the subject matter better, or if there was a more specific area that needed to be covered then sure, have at it. But thats not what this was about. This was about me personally. I won't lie... I was in tears. I felt about 2inches tall and vulnerable as hell. It took about 24 hours for me to take a step back and just say FUCK IT.
I spoke to the course coordinator about this as well. I didn't want to be a tattletale, but god knows she's gonna put this on my evaluation and I didn't want him to see it and have a WTF moment. It was really hard to tell him what happened. I was embarrassed and scared that this would be the end of my teaching. I shouldn't have been. He was both pissed (at her) and very supportive of me. That conversation helped restore some confidence. I am curious what her reaction will be when she sees me in the ER. My response will be to maintain my composure, show the class that she (obviously) doesn't have, and tell her to go fuck herself (in my head, of course)!